It’s been awhile since I’ve consistently posted anything online. It’s been a rough busy couple of months. I haven’t been feeling good physically since March. I’ve been sick a lot since then and just plain not feeling good. My friends who know me know that it’s not the first I haven’t felt well in my life but I thought I was making it up in my mind or going crazy. Thankfully, through fasting and prayer I’ve been able to slowly discover what is wrong with me. I am so grateful for revelation from Heavenly Father that guides my daily life. I’m starting to feel better now and I hope the doctors can diagnose a problem soon!
Like I just said, I’ve had a real lack of desire to post online. I feel like no one reads it or no one really cares. It’s funny because I’ve had an real increase lack of desire ever since Elder Bednar told us to post more online and flood the internet with good things. I guess there has just been great opposition for me following an apostle’s request.
I’ve had the prompting to do the “WordPress LDS Ward” blog for six months now! I started templates but never got over the hump of publishing the site.
I’ve been reading my scriptures, attending the temple, going to the church and praying. What is wrong with me? Finally on Sunday I asked my husband for a priesthood blessing. I haven’t asked for one in a while. I feel like that blessing really helped me get back on my feet. The blessing counseled me to continue to share my testimony and photography online then my stress will go away. I have really felt power of the priesthood be pouring down into my life.
Another thing is that I’ve realized that I have a real problem with emotional eating and social media especially since I’ve been so stressed. I haven’t been posting very much but I’ve been wasting countless hours reading what other people are doing on social media… mainly Facebook. Don’t get me wrong, I love reading about your life but I’ve tried many times to put limits on my Facebook time and failed greatly. If I’m not on Facebook, I’m indulging myself on foods that make me sick. When I feel sick, I want to eat more food because I think it makes me feel better. I tried cutting things out cold turkey but I just realized my efforts wasn’t working!
Then I was chatting with my SIL online and she suggested that I start reading the LDS Addictions Recovery manual. It was the best advice I’ve gotten in a long time. After sincerely studying only the first two lessons, I feel so much more faith, hope and control in my life. I may even start attending the emotional eating meetings. The books also says writing is a good therapy. 🙂 I haven’t felt this good in a long time.
I testify that the Atonement of Jesus Christ works and if anyone out there is feeling a lack of hope just call upon God and He will bless you. Ask for help. Prepare yourself to ask and receive priesthood blessings.
I know that I can’t change all by myself but the atonement can change me even if it’s something as silly as getting rid of food addictions or heal me from pain. I have felt an increase of control in my life ever since I’ve been humble enough to seek for more help. I know that God will always give me more help when I need it whether it be through the priesthood or professionals. Because of Jesus Christ, there is always someone out there to help us feel better.
Sorry I really have tried to keep this blog about my blessings not my trials but it’s enviable… We all have trials even when I don’t talk about them much!
Question: How have you witness the blessings of the atonement in the mist of your trials?
I’ve include pictures of me and my husband in this post from our 4th anniversary back in May. We took these pictures in Logan, Utah on Old Main Hill where we first met and dated. We used a tripod on self-timer. My husband has been a great help and companion in my life. I’m so grateful for his willingness to serve me and our little family!
22 thoughts on “My Blog Depression”
Well, I appreciate your posts, especially this one. It gives me courage and strength to fight my “addictions.” Good luck, I know with the Lord anything is possible!
Thanks Heather! It was good to see you yesterday!
I was going to say it but you said it perfectly, “writing is good therapy.” when I am down in the dumps (usually stress from work) I go into a free-writing moment and just scribble everything that wants to pour out of my mind. However, IF there’s nothing? I just DRAW, DRAW, DRAW! I often find the power atonement and the blessings of the priesthood truly helpful at times like this.
Thank you Xtiphanieo for the comment. I use to draw all the time may be I should get back into it. I really like your blog. Thanks for posting uplifting stuff online!
I read all your posts 🙂 I’m glad you share things about how the gospel actually Works, Latter day saints have trials and down days (seasons) just like anyone else. The answer for All of us is Christ. Anything that points us to Him is good, and needed. The Stake Conference with Elder Clayson last week gave us a good rule for what we seek, read and learn. Spend at least equal time with the Lord, through the scriptures, prophets and other accurate and uplifting sources. (paraphrased)
Thanks for the thought Lisa!!
Like the commenters above, I also enjoy reading your blog! I’m not a great commenter because I’m usually just catching up during a spare moment… May Bo, I think you are so great and such an inspiration to me with your testimony! Hope to keep seeing your posts, even if they aren’t all about blessings… Trial posts also help your readers too! Xoxo
Thanks Liana!!! 🙂
I just want to send you a (digital) hug from across the ocean! 🙂
Right back at you!! 🙂
I hear you about trials. This summer has been harder for me… not sure why. In some ways feeling depressed and overwhelmed is part of life for everyone. We all have hills and valleys in life, and the valleys are where our faith grows. Then we use that faith to enjoy the next high point.
I agree Holly! I hope everything will be more smooth for you now that you’re not pregnant anymore!!! I love you.
Hey, you have people reading your blog, and you are making a difference. =) I’ve felt similar feelings, but I know that it’s the small and simple things that make the greatest difference in the world.
Also, the ARP manual is SO inspired! That has been such a great blessing for me in my life, both in helping other people and in being helped. Thank you for speaking up about its usefulness. Hopefully others will be more willing to reach out and use it because of your example.
God bless you!
Thank you!! You’re right it’s small and simple consistent things that make the difference. I appreciate you comment. I’m just slowing chugging through the ARP manual. It’s actually a lot to ponder about. Thank you for your great blog and posting positive things online!
This is a wonderful post, May Bo. Honest and heartfelt. I’m glad you’re on the mend. I often fail to ask for help when I need it and then when I do, it’s wonderful! I absolutely love your anniversary photos. They’re beautiful! Is that at Utah State? I actually used to work in the Engineering Dept. there but that was way back in the 70s! 😀
Thank you Linda!! It is at Utah State. Dallin and I both did engineering at USU!!! 🙂 We loved it there. That’s awesome that you use to work in the engineering dept!! What a small world.
I’m not even sure if the Electro-Dynamics Lab where I worked is still there! It was fascinating. The lab engineers were working on a project for the first space shuttle! 🙂
I echo everyone else in that you have such a nice, uplifting blog. Thank you for your efforts! I love the pictures in front of those beautiful trees!
It’s funny that you say since you heard Elder Bednar encourage us to spread more of the uplifting, gospel centered messages on Social Media, that you haven’t felt much like blogging. I was so surprised when I read that, because I’ve been thinking the exact same thing! In fact, the reason I was on today was to make an attempt at a post, but instead I’ve been reading the wonderful posts from others (like yours). But I feel uplifted now, so I made the right choice. And, that’s part of it too, right? So I will make another attempt at my own blog on a different day.
I really hope you are feeling better soon!
Ya Debbie. It’s crazy… I had no desire to share the gospel online right after Elder Bednar’s talk. It’s totally opposition and I realize it. After I increased my efforts I saw an increase of anti-stuff popping up on my email and accounts. It was only a witness to me that I’m suppose to post online!! You can do it!! You can post online. Can’t wait to see what you produce. Thanks for the nice comment!! 🙂
This post really helped me right now, especially since we just moved and I feel like I’ve been doing similar things (excessive time on FB and eating wayyy too many Oreos/ ice cream). I appreciate you sharing something that’s more personal and probably not the easiest thing to tell people you don’t know! It reminded me that it takes actual effort to overcome trials and that it won’t just happen because you prayed for help once! 🙂 Lovely pictures, by the way!
I totally missed this comment sorry for the late reply. Thank you so much for commenting. It feels nice when I know that other people can relate. I’m excited to read more of your blog!